i'm hurt

xkn nk jd cam kucing ni kot??pki topeng sbb xnk jd diri sndri?


i'm just soooOo hurt~
don't know why la.....
mood swing,k~org tego sket x leh..........
sensitif nak mampos,,,,
tOlOng la aiman,be matured,,,,grow up la,,,
until when ko nk terus ngn sikap ni???takkan la nk sume org phm ko...

hmm....tp~

i still have feelings what,,,,tego pon agak2 a....
mcm sume bnde a xkne ngn ak ni,,,
brutal la,ganas a,x mcm perempuan a,rock a,,,,
x sesuai a buat cam2 sbb ko pompuan,kasar a,,,
gRrr~

mmg ak cani pon,,,,,,
npe?can't accept me because of i AM MYSELF???
so,,,ak kne wat cne nk jd 'perempuan' 2??
pki high heels?pki gINCu?
ckp lemah lembut ngn sume org??huh??!!
no converse?no shirts?no sling bags?no jokes?
and should i be serious ALL THE TIME???!

i'm sOO sick of this...
cukup la...
klu ak leh terime burok baik org,npe xleh terime ak cani?
bkn ak kasar ngn sume org,,,
(kasar pon ngn LAKI kot!)
bkn ak gurau ngn sume org,,,
(dgn org yg ak blh get along JE kot!)

sedeh x yah ckp a.....sAAAAaaanGAT!! ='(
tp,xpe la,,,,
ak still seorg kwn,,,,,
i stiLL love all my fren the way they are..=)


ad satu malam ni kn,,,kat kElAntAn,ak sedeh sgt,,,,,,,
(mlm sblm kte tgk smallville,kn tasneEm??huhu)
tasneem je ad kat ctu,,,
ak cte kat de(miss u nem2!!huhu)
npe ek??h0h0,,,,sedeh thp gaban la,,,
sedeh ngn diri ak,,,
ak selalOO ter pK,'kasar sgt ke ak?'
'bgos sgt ke ak nk benci2 org len?'
'baik sgt ke ak smpi xske kat dak Gedix 2?'

i hate those feelings,k??!!!!!!
ak xde hak weh,nk benci org,,,
nak cop org 2 gedik ke ap,,,,,
ak nk sgt jd 'AKU' yg terime org len seadanye,,,
smpi ak ckp kat tasneem,'ak benci ngn diri ak'~
hmm......terOk kn??
i've lost my self-confident...
lost all my strength......='(
saat 2....ak rindu sgt kat mOon,nisa,bilah,mus,shida,ale,nabila hanis,asma,asilah,miza,nadh,jem,,,,,,rmi lg a!!!!!grrr~
i love u all,,,
thanks 4 accept me in the way i did...
semoga ALLAH bls kasih syg korg,,,
dan,,,,,,,,,sekarang~i want to keep moving,searching,and climbing,,,
2 achieve my target...take it easy la aiman~huhu



p/s:ALLAH love me,,,,u know how???by send me friends who always care for me and sincerely give advices 2 me,,,,thanks~ALHAMDULILLAH...................